After 6 months of languishing, I had to make a move. So I did, literally. I rented a condo and moved after the 6 months was over. That, coupled with the anti depressants lifted my spirits; I wasn’t back to my old self, but some forward progress was being made. My biggest challenge was what…

While in the hospital, I read a book called Spirit Junkie. It was about how to recognize and change from fearful ways of thinking, to make way for bliss and how to maintain our happiness and share it with the world. By understanding and changing our perceptions, hang ups will melt away, resentment will release…

Being released from the hospital after 4 months was a huge moment. I had only been out once or twice for a couple of hours, hadn’t driven for 4 months and did not have a place to live as I had sold my condo just before being jailed amd hospitalized. My release was based on…

There were 2 separate visits to the hospital, one for 3 weeks and the second for 4 months. So, the second time around was easier as I knew the doctors and nurses. The care at the hospital from the doctors and nurses was exceptional. My psychiatrist was excellent – smart, compassionate and straightforward. And the…

I never dreamt in a million years that I would ever be in prison. But due to a shortage of beds at the psychiatric hospital, I was sent to jail for 24 days. Needless to say, I was horrified. You’ve heard all the stories. But it wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would…

The summer of 2023 begins with pneumonia. I was driving to Florida and couldn’t stop coughing so I went into the Brockville General Hospital. They did a series of tests and they told me it was pneumonia and gave me a prescription. I said to the doctor that I was going to drive home to…

After my surgeries and subsequent manic phase, I slipped into a depression again. This one would last for 3 long years. Prolonged depression, clinically known as Persistent Depressive Disorder (PDD) or dysthymia, is a chronic, low-grade mood disorder lasting for at least two years (one year in children). It is characterized by a persistent sad,…

In the latter part of 2015, the stomach pain became unbearable. I went to my doctor and he suggested that I go to the hospital. Of course, I resisited. But after a week of excruciating pain, I relented. The prognosis was a bowel obstruction and immediate surgery. Despite my fear of hospitals and operations, I…

As I mentioned in a previous blog, my father was amazingly supportive during my manic and depressive episodes. He never judged and understood that it was not me, it was an altered reality based on a mental illness. He co-signed for a house giving me the opportunity to get back on my feet after ruining…

It’s been 68 days since I was detained. Between prison and the hospital, my mind has traveled to many different places. From despair to hope, from fear to calm, from manic to real, and from sadness to happiness. In the next 24 hours, a judge will hopefully accept my psychiatrists report and grant me the…